- published in 2017 from my previous blog -
As each year passes, I keep thinking it's going to get easier and some years I'm so distracted with my own shit that it doesn't affect me as much, but this year is not one of them. This year, I will be turning 29 years old - the same age my mom was when she passed away.
My mom's last New Year's celebration ringing in 2000
Isn't it weird how the mind works? I can remember turning 24 and thinking, "wow, I've officially lived as long without my mom as I did with her" and when I turned 25 I thought, "well now I've lived longer without my mom than with her." Definitely not the healthiest thought process, but I can't help my mind from going there...
Momma's girl (date unknown)
I usually avoid allowing myself to feel anything on these significant days, but this year felt different. I've allowed myself to feel it and I've been feeling it all day. I woke up this morning and immediately opened a photo album and I decided to drive to work (instead of take the train) so I could have some music therapy which ultimately just turned into me bawling in rush hour traffic (that wasn't the safest idea...sorry, dad).
Here are a few of my 'music therapy' songs (in no particular order):
And thank you to everyone for reaching out and sharing such kind messages and even memories of my mom. It means more to me than I can say. If you knew my mom, I'm interested in knowing what songs make you think of her and why. Or what songs make you think of a lost loved one in your life?
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